I love white recently. I dont know why. Maybe I just need something bright on my room, you know it is quite dark with its blue wall color, and the stupid things I drew something odd like a kindergarten scratch on the wall x) well, I said to Lucy that this 'graffiti' was pretty cool to boost our mood but it was no longer valid hahahahah. I intent to prepare the spaces to hang some photo-frame of us (me, family, friends) on it, and another to pinning sheets of photo that scattered on the table. Ah, but I think, I have to learn how to put a nail on the wall :') it is not easy... anyone help, guys? 

So, here's some photo-side of my new room. I like it! it's bright and calm hehe. Dont forget to mentioned Lucy for thanking because she helped me to paint this messy room from 9 a.m till 5 p.m NON STOP! hah I love youuuuuuuuuuu xixi

I thought that my love story would never be this complicated. The over relationship was a lesson for me and the pain will healed by time. I guess. But when somebody that we used to know/loved (Okay! I know, Gotye) come through our blackberry messenger and had a private chat like we used to.. Oh please I need God! I had no idea what I really feel. I feel like moving forward, then stop, turning back and walking away, but then stop again, turning back again, start to take one step but crazily hesitate. In my life (well, I'm still 19th years old, everybody) I only know a few guys who I allowed to explore my personal life. I'm not a type of girl who, you know 'collect' some guys, so I think I'm fairly closed to anyone else, particulary a boy. I think, if there's a 'good bye' feeling, there will come another 'hello' from someone new. But love-story doesn't always like Mama said, or proverb's said. Hahah, I dont know :))

Oh, by the way on this 29th May 2012 was Ghea's birthday, my far away blogger-fellas come from Malang, East Java! I promised her to make a gift about her. She asked me to make one for her since 3 month ago, I guess. But I decided to make the special one for her special day! Happy Birthday, dear. I'm sorry for so late post :) I hope you like it, and meet-up schedule is our purpose for now. Feliz cumpleaños! :)

Hi guys! Actually I'm not in a good feeling right now. Seriously, I just got some problem that make me think much. What's the meaning of social media for you guys? For me, it's one of the best inventions that ever found in the world. We connected each other, shared informations each other, the pictures, the videos, the pages, or maybe some thought. Since I knew twitter as microblogging that could eliminate boredom and relate among my friends, and some account that I WISH could help me to look for an information or share something that I need to be answered by some people out there, so that I almost tweeted all-day-long or even almost everyday. This is very helpful ways and easy. We don't need to meet face-to-face but just share and HOPE your tweet will be retweeted. But for all that I got last night, please do not too believe that this would be helpful like the expected. Twitter is my daily-short post. What I thought, I write. Without no preparation *such like my blog that need to complex theme and purpose to write. And of course blog is contains more than 140 character* but I'm 19 years old right now and I have to really know what should I tweet. What should I say, when about more than 200 people were watching and reading *yes I'm not that popular with less follower but what's all mean if I dont know who had follow me? or who that I followed?* 

Here, I don't want to blame people who involved in this 'non-sense-problem' but I just wanna tell you that there are a lot of people out there, judge us just like they are our mother. Look for the weakness point or something that if could developed just a little bit, this gonna be fun and just like the boomerang and forgotten about 'well service' Oh my God who kind of person standing behind all of this slogan? My simple wish was a grenade. I feel disappointed. Those who don't follow my timeline, or my real-life could say something like that. JUST WHO ARE YOU, GUYS? :) Moreover, being a small veil girl like me, is such that easy. I'm nothing, and you could trampling me anytime you want, with the big wekaness point that definitely easy to guess. My veil. One two statement, than I die. Then let me answering.. Who Are You? I don't even asking you to do something to me, then Who Are You? :) 

Never get bored with these ancient leather hand-bag. Accompanied Lucy who bought some stuff for her mini online shop Magasin De Chance. Oh my God! She bought the new arrival cutest hand-bag which is ready to sell. It's ancinet and look good 70's style though that these just a second-hand's stuff. 

I love these bag but I have no intention to buy one of her stuff hehe honestly I'm not interested to buy a bag, particulary hand-bag like I crazy about shoes. But I love the shape and the shining of its leather hehe. But If I have to choose, or even got random for free from Lucy (heheh) I'll choose this one :

The collection will be published soon on the facebook account! go grab go grab!

*um.. sorry for the background hehe asked the mess to lucy :p :p

I've been feeling so blue since my dad got sick on last November 2009. I just want to tell the truth about my feeling because I have no one special who never get deaf to listen my problems. Sometimes, I walk too far and speak so far as well, even in the place that I shouldn't speak up. I feel so sad when somebody out there told me that I'm over reacting in some case, or even too much to expression the sadness. Did I bother you? with all of my words? Even some of them are people I called 'sibling'.. Oh where are you when I need you as a family to hear my sore? I'm just feel like a barbie, who always smiling for fake and forced to do that right know. 

Sometimes, you shouldn't tell the jokes story to cheer me up or act like a clown to make me smile-sincerely. A piece of intention named attention is much better. You should know, people aren't made just like you. There are always a painfull gravel on it. Inside, that not all the people know how it feel, before they feel it by themselves. Be a flower occasionally, you are not a stranger for me. I should feel free to start a conversation, but I'm sorry.. I'm not feel that way. For now. You messed-up my room. My heart. 

By the way, my camera's take a rest for too long. So I asked my friend Tino from See You in Paradise to take some picture out there quite far from our housing. I interested with his shirt! x)

Here's the example ..