As a girl, I do have some passion to buy something that catch my eyes, my heart, and not burdening my wallet of course. Sometimes, people do serve the cheap stuff for those who have limited cash but still be able to follow some trend. But in the other side, there are also some people who more prioritizing the quality than the price. The price will following, based on the quality of that product itself. I used to sold my artwork in the form of digital image which is made by hand on its process. I was always trying to give them, my customer the best artwork I made to make them glad and willing to come to me again and order some of my artwork. Making some custom artwork isn't that easy as you think. You're not only scratch that pencil on the paper and it will be move by itself as closely like your imagination. It is need positive energy and glad feeling. Some artist could work in the pressure of dateline, but not for me (eventhough I'm not a professional artist). Yes I had some brand, some of you who had order my artwork must be know "You Are On Your Mug" and then my secondary project was "The Pencil Case" -- Yeaaa, I am a person behind that brand.

In this case, having online shop/sell something through social media needs more responsibility. Start from the brand, the product, the price, the service, and the quality. On my own business, I've got a complain from my customer. The content was very easy "Thanks, I like it. But, next time just make sure to make it keep clean. I see something in the back side of your mug. The ink is melt and littering. Little bit disappointed, but it's okay, I need this mug as soon as possible for my boyfriend's birthday gift. Thankyou". I felt supermega guilty at that time! From her complain I know one thing that, selling something is not always about the money. Get their heart first with your ability to give more quality of your product then the money will come to you. And I prove it! I show my previous artwork to my customers, and I'm not lying to tell my weakness and difficulties about some custom which is tricky. I better say "No, I cannot draw like that. I am still learning" than I have to tell that I know every technique of draw something with level complexity that's beyond of my ability. 

I think it's okay if we want to buy some unbranded stuff, but make sure to still keep the originality of us. Like dad used to say to me to buy something original and in a good quality. Good quality would never lying. It might need more cost but it won't be worth it as well. Ah.. I miss my Dad. I wish he was here, and he must be mad at me because buying something that improperly purchased. Take responsibilty.

promise 100% original.......

PS: I'm sorry for those tried so hard to asked me to draw again, the school really take my time to draw. As I said, fine art needs positive energy and happy feeling. I would rather to say "No" than "Yes" but I give you a bullshit of sweet words of my artwork it would be :) Just wait for me to come back soon. Thank you.. I love you..

"Tuhan tolonglah, sampaikan sejuta sayangku untuknya.. ku trus berjanji, takkan khianati pintanya. Ayah dengarlah, betapa sesungguhnya ku mencintaimu, kan ku buktikan ku mampu penuhi maumu..."

My dad, Anwar Musyaddad -- just passed away about 2 weeks ago. He fought for his right to be health like he used to. He need 3 years, he was struggling and pain. I don't know why I could be this tough. I'll never see my Dad anymore. I used to wonder, if someone/my friends lost their family member, and they looked so tough and some even didn't cry.... I did. Yes, of course I was crying. It was hard to see my dad, in a cold condition, didn't give us any sign of life, his eyes was closed so tight, there was no response when I called his name to wake him up to pray Subuh..... my Dad, is home. Yeah I cried but I felt very sincere, and wiped my tears. A tons of hugs was lil bit relief me. My heart was break when I see him suffering for his disease for about the last 3 years. God... I know this is the best way for him, and us who love him, wife, daughters, and son. Everything has planned well and right, and God is the best director who allowed my brother to take a leave from the office one night before my dad passed away, He allow me to sat together with my Dad at the terrace while had a cup of tea, gave him cajuput oil after he took a bath................Dad, it feels too fast.

Now I know... what was others do and think when this condition come to them and HOW it feels. It feels hurt, in one time my heart drowned and breaks into pieces..... hurts more than anything... "Gosh, it's like you'll NEVER see him anymore" but one thing that I learn... life goes on... I still have my last-precious another diamond called "Mom" and this time, I have to take care of her. All my best, for her and for my family. 

Beside that, I feel my Dad is still around. I just 'feel' not 'see', and this is more than enough...... Save him for me, God. I beg. Good bye, Dad... Good bye, Abah. See you soon :')

"Andaikan detik itu, kan bergulir kembali.... ku rindukan suasana, basuh jiwaku - membahagiakan aku yang haus akan kasih dan sayangmu. Tuk wujudkan, segala sesuatu yang pernah terlewati......"

Yang Terbaik Bagimu ( Jangan Lupakan Ayah )  

Drs. H. Anwar Musyaddad
(01-01-1953 - 21-02-2013)